unmotivated

i've been out of work for over a week now, and i do believe it is killing me slowly. there are days, like today, when i just don't want to get out of bed. having nothing to do all day long is really the kiss of death for a person like me. i can be ridiculously productive if i have things to do -- i like to be efficient and save time -- but when all i have is a loose to-do list of things like going to the grocery store and organizing my room, its really difficult for me to self-motivate. i would love nothing more than to spend my day shopping for christmas gifts, trolling barnes & noble or tanning and getting mani-pedis. unfortunately, all these things require the one thing i am a little short on: money. i have found that i am still carrying on my life as usual, and not really saving money. this is bad! i need to conserve. so, no more tanning and mani-pedis for me! i am buying christmas gifts, but trying to avoid any places that would tempt me to buy things for myself. i just spent a good hour crafting my christmas/birthday wish list for my mom.

there are some things that i want to do to keep busy that i hope will further my career and keep me in the reporting/writing state of mind. i have launched a new blog, but i'm not ready to share it just yet. i find that when i have more than enough time on my hands i am utterly unmotivated to be creative and interesting. so i feel like my blog is just a lot of boring news at the moment. soon it will have some interesting, unique things to read as well.

i am also looking forward to launching a few websites of my own, maybe launch my own web empire? i have been saying that i want to do this for a number of months, but i just haven't gotten around to it. i though for sure that by this point i would have done some things to push myself along that way, given all the time i have on my hands. but no. i just want to stay in bed, sit on my couch or nap. i'm hoping this is just a wave of depression that will pass soon.

in the meantime, any words of encouragement, advice or thoughts about how i can motivate myself is greatly appreciated!