late night cravings

at around 9:30 tonight, i ran out of things to do. or rather, i ran out of tv shows to watch on my dvr, there was nothing else on tv i wanted to watch and i didn't really feel like doing anything work-related. there is one word to describe this feeling: blurg.

when i start to feel this way -- bored and generally blah -- i start to raid the fridge. this is why i struggle with my weight. tonight, i resisted the urge to eat bad things, mostly because i don't have much on hand. tonight, i'm craving sugary sweet and sour candy, like sweet tarts, peach o's or sour skittles, all favorites of mine. truth is, i'll probably end up buying candy of this kind at some point tomorrow just to make up for not eating any of it tonight. i could have gone out and walked half a block to the nearest bodega and picked some up, but part of feeling blah is this feeling of not wanting to do anything, least of all getting off the couch, putting on pants and walking half a block.

tomorrow, i'm waking up early to hit a career fair. it starts at 10 and goes until 3, but i figured i would try to get there on the early side to just get it over with. then, i'm heading to radio city to see denis leary do stand up comedy. i'm looking at it as a reward for doing something i don't want to do but feel i must, namely the career fair. will anything come of it? doubtful. but in a few months, when i'm desperate for any kind of paying employment, maybe i'll have a card or someone to call that will actually hire me to do something.

here's hoping.