nice weather makes me happy

yesterday was an absolute disaster...from waking up at 6:30 in stamford and falling back asleep until 7:05, to standing ona crowded train for the 45 minute trip into the city, to lugging a 50 pound suitcase full of clean laundry around manhattan.

then something went wrong with one of the canadian profiles i have to write for the next few weeks (based on our trip north a few weeks back). i ended up writing four stories and was stuck at work until 7 p.m.

and to make matters worse, i was already depressed and disillusioned about my job to begin with.

after stumbling home last night, unpacking and recharging, i was feeling slightly better but i was not excited about work today.

but today was surprisingly easy, and i was super productive. the warm weather and extra sunlight in the evening totally envigorated me. i got out of work just before 6 and went to the gym near my office for the first time. it was so much bigger and nicer than the one i've been going to in brooklyn. i don't know what i've been thinking!

after that i walked to 13th st for a quick tanning session which, combined with the exercise, totally perked me up. add my favorite sushi for dinner and i had a pretty good evening. i even got the apartment to myself until 10:30.

i'm hoping that keeping busy, going to the gym, eating better, hopefully losing weight, will take my mind off the things that are really bothering me. the truth of the matter is, i'm not ready to go through all the mess i went through less than a year ago to find another job...and i don't know what i would want to do even if i had the opportunity.

i'm looking forward to warm weather and long summer days. at the very least, that has to cheer me up....right?