discouraged

i have been going through some stuff this week. like serious, health related stuff. the highs and lows of this week have left me drained, and for once it has nothing to do with work, family, my boyfriend or my apartment. this is above and beyond. this is my life, my body and my future. after this week, i know all i have ahead of me is more doctor appointments, more co-pays, more anxiety, more sonograms, more pain.

its enough to make a girl just want to give up.

honestly, i want to tell you about this. some of you already know. but this is too soon and too personal, and i need some time to get my thoughts about it straight. i also need to decide my next move. once that is set my mind will clear a little i think. we'll see.